Yeah... to be honest, this whole thing is freaking me out a fair bit too. It's sort of easy to just want school to keep going, and to not actually have to
get a job. But it's probably easier for someone in your position, a field that's always looking for new people. Game design is so unstable, and so...
weird, not to mention competitive and person-based. My biggest fear has always been, "what if it doesn't happen"? I mean, what if I don't luckily meet the right person to get me the good job, or any job at all? What am I going to do if this backfires or fails? All of the things I want to do have this chance of failing spectacularly on me. Teacher has always been an idea that I've kept on backup, but that requires going to school for another 4 years, plus a good 10 grand on top of the 50 I already owe...
I'm sure it'll turn out fine, but I can't help but be nervous. Ah, well. I've sent the application to Eidos. They contacted ME, so I've got a good feeling about it. We'll see where that takes me, I guess. And I've got a month and a half before I go out to Montreal, so it's not like I'm in a huge rush to get employed.
Well, okay, I am. But it's not like there's an immediate time limit.